The Newest Music Mama & Eminem

May I start by saying how excited I am to be the newest Music Mama? I’m going to. I am SO excited and honored to be part of this!!  This is it, my virgin post… pressure at all…..nervous as all get up but that’s normal for me.

I had this really great post about my favorite rappers, gangsta rappers…(I was once a sucker for a thug). Tupac, Biggie, Too Short, Ice Cube and Dr. Dre just to name a few, but then I saw 60 minutes and changed the whole post.

(Let the record show that this is the FIRST time 60 minutes has ever influenced my writing…..well done Anderson Cooper, well done sir)

Love him or hate him, Eminem is what he is.  Raw, real, honest and in your face, Eminem is one of the greatest rappers in my mind.  Here’s why…..

I caught the last hook of “Love the Way You lie” while driving home from work one day and thought to myself “Finally. Em is BACK”.  When I got home I immediately downloaded the entire Recovery album via iTunes. By far THE best purchase I’ve made all year (which doesn’t say much for my purchases now does it) but then it occurred to me, the last album I purchased was Eminem’s “Marshall Mathers”.  I remember this because I bought the CD for my brother but then I borrowed it, forever.  It was a great album featuring “Stan” and “The Real Slim Shady”.  Tracks with lyrics so cleverly pieced together, so in your face raw and controversial that it was almost too real. For some, his lyrics were hateful, angry and offensive.  For others, his lyrics were simply pieces to an artist’s masterpiece.  Rap is, or at least can be, an art.

Eminem’s latest masterpiece “Recovery” is just that, a friggin masterpiece.  An artful masterpiece with lyrics that send chills down my spine…so true, so accurate to things I’ve felt or dealt with myself that it knocks the wind out of me. Like a punch to the gut, Eminem serves the truth that is his life in the most intimate, passionate and chilling way that only Em can do.

So how is it that a skinny white chick from rural Minnesota can relate to a skinny white high school dropout dude turn rap icon from the streets of Detroit?

Have you ever found yourself fighting your own self destructive demons and dark, heavy lies of depression? Have you ever felt like YOU are your own worst enemy? I have….more often than I like to admit.

These Demons are self destructive, self loathing, angry demons that come from who knows where. Em has his issues, I have mine.  How we acquired our issues is irrelevant. What is relevant is the ability to relate.

The first time I heard “Talkin to Myself” I had to pull the car over. I had to listen to the lyrics, they captivated me. It felt as if he was talking to me and I had been talking to myself. The raw emotion and feelings, attacking people around you, lashing out at others because you’re pissed about where you are and what your life has become……a bad rap video.

“Changes” hit a part of me, the dark part where depression lies in the shadows. I listened to the song, the lyrics cut into that dark part of me and it opened up emotions and memories I had tried so desperately not to feel. In the song Em tells the story of pretty much hating himself, hating where his life was, what he had become.

It tells the story of a depressed and desperate person. One line goes:

“Poppin another pill tryin to talk myself into it”

and I’m not proud to say this but, I have been that person. Then in the background you hear the voice of a little girl calling “Daddy” and you hear the sounds of a heart monitor and with that, I bawled, I felt all of the emotions and feelings I’d been avoiding and it hit me hard.  I listened to the song over and over again, I felt it…I mean I really felt it. I heard the PIT calling for her mama, me. I felt the pain of being at an all time low and the fear of succumbing to depression. I heard a voice saying “You know the sound of that voice CC, listen. Listen to your daughter cry herself to sleep at night because you CHOSE to leave this world.”

That’s when I switched tracks and cranked “I’m Not Afraid”. By far, the BEST song I’ve heard in a long time.  Every word in this song gave me chills; it made me feel stronger and ready to fight for my life back. What the hell was I doing?! Self destructing?! Yes, that is exactly what I was doing. Pulling me out of a funk is no easy task but with one powerful hook, Em unfunked me.

This effin black cloud still follows’ me around
But it’s time to exorcise these demons
These motherfluffers are doing jumping jacks now!

Rap or not, this track SPEAKS to people. Em is not known for being the *helpful* type. In fact, most people think he’s a homophobic, name calling a-hole.  Recently, Eminem was featured on 60 minutes talking about his recovery into sobriety. If you didn’t have the chance to see it, I highly recommend checking it out.  In the interview you get a glimpse into where Eminem came from but if you’re like me and saw 8 Mile, you already knew where he came from.  And if you’re a gangsta rap groupie like I am, you also already know who to thank for bringing Em to the recording studio, if not, stay tuned to future posts ;)

Here’s the part that made me want to scream from the rooftop in JOY.  When Anderson Cooper asked Em about his raunchy lyrics if he feels responsible when other kids start repeating him, Em gave what I consider the best and honest answer, no. Em goes on to say “If you’re a parent, then parent”. Pretty simple stuff isn’t it.  Simple common sense stuff of everyday life put together in a tough, clever and poetic way.

Rap fan or not, I would recommend giving “Changes” (features Ozzy) and “I’m Not Afraid” a listen.

The story told between the profanities is a masterpiece.


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“Not Afraid”

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“Love the Way You Lie (feat. Rhianna)”

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18 Responses to The Newest Music Mama & Eminem
  1. Ri
    October 13, 2010 | 8:02 am

    Well, THIS is exactly the kind of post that sold me on CC! Raw, real and sweet simultaneously! Love it – and you even got me to actually listen to a whole Eminem song. ;)

    Welcome, welcome!
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  2. Melisa
    October 13, 2010 | 8:09 am


    Great post, CC! I’m so happy you’re part of the “family”!

    (and I LOVE EMINEM. LOVE.)
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  3. Mari
    October 13, 2010 | 8:38 am

    Love it – I’m a huge fan of hardcore music with a hardcore message (Metallica speaks to me like that). “The story told between the profanities is a masterpiece” is my new favorite sentence! :)
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  4. Andrea
    October 13, 2010 | 8:44 am

    Love it Christeen!

  5. Lori
    October 13, 2010 | 8:49 am

    GREAT post!!! It made me teary… AND it made me want to run out and buy the CD :o

  6. singlemama_cc
    October 13, 2010 | 9:33 am

    Wow, thank you all SO much!! I had such a blast writing this, I’m happy to be part of the posse!! Thanks for making a mama welcome~
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  7. DiPaola Momma
    October 13, 2010 | 12:12 pm

    I’ve LOVED CC for what seems like evah.. once again she blows me away. I would like to take this moment to request that we shove my Eminem post ( in the comPOST bin.. CC does it SO MUCH better!

  8. noringsattached
    October 13, 2010 | 1:28 pm

    Awesome Post!!!

    I love Em for all the same reasons you just wrote about (and Im also a pretty big Tupac, Biggie & Dre fan myself !)

    Looking forward to your next post!
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  10. C Lo
    October 13, 2010 | 4:16 pm


    ok, gonna go buy Recovery RIGHT NOW.
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  11. Jenni
    October 14, 2010 | 2:12 am

    Great first post CC! And Recovery is one of my FAVORITE new albums I’ve purchased. And definitely the BEST one Em has put out thus far.

    And when he talked about parenting on 60 Minutes, all I could think was, “DAMN STRAIGHT!” He was right on, as far as I was concerned.
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  13. Alex
    October 19, 2010 | 5:14 pm

    Eminem has truly proven himself in this industry. When Recovery came out, I was floored. His previous two albums were really nothing to be proud of, as a fan. I felt like he had gone downhill since The Marshall Mathers LP (because really, that’s when I truly started listening to him), but this new album is a masterpiece. My goodness. 10 years of Eminem and I still can not get enough.

    Okay okay I think I need to go write a post of my own now. Haha.

    Love this piece, you are an amazing persuasive writer!
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